People say: just forget about it
It's impossible to let go of something you lived with for such a long time - a warm feeling inside me that would turn into a fire whenever he would walk by. It didn't hurt. Before. For 2 years. Now. It does.
I'm used to getting what i want. Our history with this guy makes me sick and i feel crushed inside. It's hard to express what i feel on paper but then i think of all the other people who feel the same - there are so many of us in this world- and it makes me feel better, calmer and stronger. i forget about it. but only for a little moment.